Thursday, June 29, 2006
worldcup2006
you can stand admist fields of gold and green, and hear a billion hearts that beat, unseen. you can fill 90 mins of fleeting time and space, with tragedy and triumph and amazing grace. you can carry it in forever in your soul. their names, carved on every goal. this is where you can always belong. this is where legends are born.
animal abusers should seriously burn in hell for all enternity. wth is wrong you you people. who the hell on god's good greeness would ever do something so bitch headed. wth is going on in your sized two brains, you sasddistic pieces of puss infected cow sores. wtf. i seriously hope you reincarnate into a flee and that you'd end up at my door step and i'll put you in a box and then in another box and i'll post it back to me and i'll squash your bloody antsized brains outta your peasized skulls you mindless son of a bitches.
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
everyeveningisasundayevening
its like misery's an old friend. and it tricks you sometimes into thinkin its always gonna be there. like you cant be happy. but you can walk away from pain. and i think being in love is the best way to do it.
so quit your life, and stay with me.
Monday, June 26, 2006
chasingcars
it seemed as though all hope was lost tonight.
its hard to pretend your happy when all thats left inside of you is a bleeding heart.
and its difficult to have faith because in the end its always the same outcome.
i dont think my heart can weather much more,
this need, this jealousy, this hatred.
my emotions are dying to scream aloud.
but im afraid,
because to get your heart chewed up and spatted back out,
hurts like hell.
if i lay here, if i just lay here. would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Sunday, June 25, 2006
deciet.
i guess i was wrong about you. its hard trying to penetrate through that mask you wear. that mask you change. you snap so fast i dont even know who you are. sometimes you are the nicest person on the entire planet and sometimes you go as black as the ground under my feet. you can get really ugly behind someones back and yet put on a pretty face when your up in front. i just dont see how someone can be such a hateful lying scumbag and go around speaking so ill of another. are you for real because honestly i dont want to know you because i dont know how someone can be that hypocritical.
time takes it all, whether you want it to or not. time takes it all, time bears it away.. and in the end.. there is only darkness. sometimes we find others in that darkness, and sometime we lose them there again.
Saturday, June 24, 2006
2006
friends are always a special part of you. you can never get enough of them. they tickle you. they make you cry. but they are always here nonetheless. and i cant thank them enough for what they have given me these past years.soo heres to...
carmen, thanks for always calling me out during the holidays. i'll never forget the time we spent with sushi and the coloured plates!that was very horrifying alright. and no matter what decision you make we'll always be behind you, supporting you all the way. remember that.
saaaabbbb. you stinky mf. im gonna miss you like hell seriously. i didnt even see any of you during the holidays! where the hell have you been! it seems like youre always on the other side of the planet. im gonna miss being crazy with you and smacking your firm ass.
liane. gonna miss you when your away. gonna miss having swims and talks about fernando torres. and for the record, he's still mine! thaanks for the spunk you brought into my life although it was just for a teeny bit, id really enjoyed it while it lasted. thanks for making me red the first time i drank too! your fault liane! haha!
dez, thanks for listening to my curtain spells. and my kaypee drug. and my horrible typsing-ing and all my rubbish talks. and my oth nathan fantasy! you know i cant get enough of em! and uhh. ya i'll always be here for you no matter what. no matter whoever tom dick or hargerry treats you like a pile of smelly panngsai.muhahaha. i think you got that.
kahtien, thanks for always making me do your art....... haha. ok thaks for always making me a part of something. esp in soccer. and for all the world cup fever. never ever gonna forget 2006.
julian, thanks for always putting up with me. sometimes i get abit of moodswings yannoe. thanks for all the memories. and always teasing me! but they always made me laugh. thanks for being there.
jeremy, thankyou for being so crazy! uhh! your like the highly explosive type, you emotionally interesting bitch! but you never fail to make me laugh. and also always sucking up all my nonsense and suspenssseeeeeeeeee. so yuppp. thanks a bunch. haha and your not a fucker and not a naughty boy ok? hahaha.
ji, thanks for always confiding. and always being there. no doubt can lighten the mood when your being yoursellllfffffffff..... yannoeeeeeeeeee.....
twins, nope i havent forgotten youuuu, thanks for all the happy/sad memories. whatever they were. with err all the fights and everything. it was fun while it lasted. couldnt have asked for better sidekicks then. never ever forgotten.
JU, thanks for being crazy and always bringing the mood in, opening the door. miss your loud voice although it can be quite ear threatening at times.
so thanks a million because i dont know what i would be without all of you, today.
Friday, June 23, 2006
the tide that left and never came back
losing our way would be the most cruel of things. this year, i lost my way. and losing your way on a journey is unfortunate. but losing your reason for the journey, is a fate more cruel. and once you lose yourself, you have two choices; find the person you used to be, or lose that person completely. because, sometimes, you have to step outside of the person you've been. and remember the person you were meant to be. the person you wanted to be. the person you are.
There is no despair so absolute as that which comes with the first moments of our first great sorrow, when we have not yet known what it is to have suffered and healed, to have despaired and have recovered hope.
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
brighter than sunshine
i've been watching your world from afar. i've been trying to be where you are. and i've been secretly falling apart. unseen. to me you're strange and you're beautiful. you'd be so perfect with me but you just cant see. you turn every head but you dont see me. sometimes the last thing you want comes in first. sometimes the first thing you want never comes. but i know that waiting is all you can do.
love will remain a mystery. well give me your hand and you will see. your heart is keeping time with me.
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
furiae
What could be more romantic than lovers locked in a kiss until they both crumble to dust with the weight of time.
Sunday, June 18, 2006
spoiled
nature makes us hurry inside when she weeps rain upon the world. with hurricanes, she toys with us. tornadoes are used to punish, earthquakes to throw us about like pebbles in a child's game. we live on her land, and through that, she rules over us. our very bodies belong to her. they age in rhythm with her, and they are subject to urges and desires that she imposes on us. in some ways, we're little slaves to nature's ways.
but humanity, on the other hand, has found another way to dominate. humanity detroys what we touch. we reach out towards pretty things in greed, and leave a trail of death behind. we fence the woods in, we run over animals and poison the seas. ours is a different kind of mastery but it is one nevertheless. nature serves us because she has no other choice. humanity always expects nature to mend what damage we've done; heal the woods burned down, return the animals hunted to extinction and cleanse the seas. never considering what will happen the day nature is no longer there to catch us.
Saturday, June 17, 2006
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chosing a road from these directions i stumble,
my hearts ripping up on its own.
you're standing a metre away from me,
yet it feels like a thousand miles.
and when i take a step forward and reach for you,
you start to disappear.
and all thats left is me,
alone against the world.
lifes a path we all must choose.
and when we do,
we suck it up and live through it.
dark or bright.
but i'd rather stay still here,
where i stand now, forever.
Friday, June 16, 2006
roonneeyyyy
alright alright, SO DIDCHA SEE WAYNE ROONEY PLAY LAST NIGHT. well if you didnt catch it you ought to be slapped. because you see, only when wayne rooney, aaron lennon and stewart downing came on, then the match started to become exciting. the match ended 2-0 thanks to crouch and gerrard. bloody hell, give me heart attack for 80 minutes. damn ass crouch! cannot shoot for nuts!! get your lousy ass back to playing tennis la cs ya cant excel in soccer.
Thursday, June 15, 2006
the hero dies in this one
i thought i knew you, but i guess its easier, to see what we want, than to look for the truth. you think you know me but you dont; and that means you dont know what i can do. you see me as someone who knows all the answers; thats not true. i may not always know what im doing, but i'll try to make things better. and when i make a mistake, because face it, we all do.. i promise i'll ask for your help. i cant do this alone. but if you take a chance on me, we can do great things together. i promise if you believe in me, i'll find the courage to reach for your every dream.
the courage of life is a magnificent mixture of triumph and tragedy. a man does what he must, in spite of personal consequences.. in spite of obstacles and dangers and pressures.. and that is the basis of all morality.
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
worldcup feverrrrr
omg! korea's match was soooo alike the australia's match. korea were losing 1-0 then they came back with a 2-1. not bad not bad. shit man. the world cup kills you. its kills you slowly. when your glued to your tv from 9pm to 5 in the morning, and when your sleeping 5 to 9pm at night, you hardly even have enough time to eat! soon after the world cup's over you'll realise that you've lost 10 thousand pounds and its good for the fat people but if you aint, then you'll start eating all over again and by then your body wont be used to you eating so much that you'll prolly get really really fat and die of some heart problem. yup see. the world cup's overrall really unhealthy but it sure is tasty while it lasts. anywayyyysss, it really paid off cause i got to taste some really awesome prata at bukit gombak! well see, we all went to worldcup at dez's place yesterday night, namely me, herself, kt, jeremy and julian. before the france and switzerland match we went to eat some really awesomely sweeeeeed prata! but service sucks donkeys la. and the teh peng not good.. i think jeremy can make some better ones aye! haha! ok, so the french drew with the swiss which was totally unexpected! and brazil won by only a goal. not a very impressive start to the world cup yannoe! yes, their losing it! and when it was time for sleep, i totally couldnt although i was super washed out! after all the stories dez told me about her house, the knocking and the tapping and the bloody fan that split into half, YANNOE DEZ! all your fault!heh. my bed doesnt have a gap under it no more so i kept thinking something was under her bed.
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
somewhere a clock is ticking
remember tonight, for it is the beginning of always. a promise. like a reward for persisting through life so long alone. the belief in each other and the possibilty of love. a decision, to ignore or simply rise above the pain of the past. the covenant, which at once binds two souls and yet severs prior ties. the celebration, of the chance for two will always be stronger than one. like a team, braced against the tempest's of the world. and love.. will always be the guiding force in our lives. for tonight is mere formality.. only an announcement to the world for feelings hong held. promises made long ago; in the sacred space of our hearts.
Monday, June 12, 2006
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wah seriously man, if i carry on watching every match every night im going to go crazzzzzyy! last night was crazy. jeremy kt julian liane and ian came over to watch soccer like at 12 midnight, bloody mexico and iran seriously damn boring la. waste of perfectly precious time. they really cant play for nuts, its like us girls playing. seriously man. boring like hell. it ended 3-1 though. i think the last goal was good though. i think. cant really remember. during the 1 hr interval we like totally watched wedding crashers, haha! no matter how many times i watch that show over, it still makes me laugh. the portugal and angola match was a tiny bit more exciting, prolly because there was figo and c.ronaldo. figo still has it. and c.ronaldo is a bloody show pony, he seriously cant pass for nuts. and everytime when he gets the ball he freaking loses it! the only thing he can do well is prolly shoot. but he didnt get a goal anyways. he had a number of good shots though, but he couldnt turn a half chance into a full one. rooney couldve done that! oh wells!
Sunday, June 11, 2006
William Shakespeare
Love is not love which alters when it alteration finds. It is an ever fixed mark that looks on tempests and is never shaken. Love alters not with time's brief hours and weeks, but bears it out even to the edge of doom.
-William Shakespeare
Saturday, June 10, 2006
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been damn lazy lately! everyones like in the worldcup mood. played soccer like literally everyday after school. super tiring.not only that! i didnt even have much sleep last night! went to swim at queens with liane carmun ian and ethan. wth. everyone practically went kukubananas. laughed till my cheeks went sore!and after that, went to jeremys place to camp for the night with julian and cheryl. watched the 40 year old virgin. damn gross la. bloody hell can see nehneh and everything. wth. and germany won 4-2! bloody exciting! but there were parts when my head felt like it weighed a million tonnes. damn tired! we all totally slept on the floor. bloody hell, damn hard la. woke up like ten thousasnd times, like every other minute. so im going to sleep now because i dont really like talking to myself like a crazy person.
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
the tide that left and never came back
There are two tragedies in life: one is to lose your heart's desire, the other is to gain it. As we strain to grasp the things we desire, the things we think will make our lives better: money, popularity, fame... we ignore what truly matters -- the simple things: like friendship, family, love. The things we probably already had.
true love is the soul's recognition of it's counterpoint in another.
yours truly
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
the show must go on
At this moment there are six billion, five hundred and two million, eight hundred and sixty seven thousand, one hundred and twenty people in the world, give or take a few and sometimes all you need is one. For better or for worse.
what is our exsistence in the world? where do we belong? whats our purpose? we're all indifferent, black or white. so why all the wars? why all the shooting, why all the killing why all the people dying? we're all people here. why cant we talk things out and put aside the differences and look at each other as people and not as a different race. because ultimately, we reap what we sow. and is this really just fate? must it really always end this way?
yours truly
Monday, June 05, 2006
everyeveningisasundayevening
Stepping up. Its a simple concept. It basically means to rise above yourself, to do a little more, to show you something special. Life's funny sometimes. It can push pretty hard, like when you fall in love with someone but they forget to love you back, like when your bestfriend and your boyfriend leave you alone, like when you pull the trigger or light the flame and you cant take it back. You know it's been said that we just dont recognize the significant moments in our life while their happening. We grow complacent with ideas, or things, or people and we take them for granted and it's usually not untill that thing is about to be taken away from you that you've realized how wrong you've been that you realized how much you need it, how much you love it. Every once in awhile, people step up. They rise above themsevles, sometimes they surprise you, sometimes they fall short. Life's funny sometimes, it can push pretty hard. But if you look close enough, you find hope, in the words of children, in the bars of a song and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you're lucky, if you're the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back.
Sunday, June 04, 2006
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you should see that im bleeding inside,
i dont know what to do.
i cant hold on much longer.
my plams are sweaty from all the emotions your making me feel.
let me in.
let me be your everything,
i promise i'll be your closest thing to heaven.
Saturday, June 03, 2006
john stienback
As happens sometimes, a moment settled and hovered and remained for much more than a moment. And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a moment. And then the moment was gone.
I'll tell you a secret. Something they don't teach you in your temple. The Gods envy us. They envy us because we're mortal, because any moment might be our last. Everything is more beautiful because we're doomed. You will never be lovelier than you are now. We will never be here again.
yours truly
Friday, June 02, 2006
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im sooo tired! i totally did not sleep well for like 3 nights!all bloody thanks to my bright idea of going to MOS!well me and dez were SUPPOSED to go back at arnd 2, but errr. things changed. and well again i was supposed to go home straight after that and well, i was very much tricked into staying till 6 because ben and dez totally persuaded me to!he was supposed to take the bus home but didnt anyways! a complete waste of precious sleep time!haha! well had like school the next day and oh i must say mr chngs really being a real pain in the ass.and the next day i totally had soccer camp! oh it wasnt really much fun, but mona and lucy made me laugh like hell after the movie. and you should really check out shes the man because Channing Tantum is steaming hot!